haha, should be mugging my maclaurin's series lecture notes now instead of blogging, but got too sian looking at all those numbers..

anyway j2 life started quite crazily, haha, cos at the start i was trying to finish chionging my hols homework (which i haven't really completed, thanks to gp), and because of that, i lag behind for this year's work, and now i'm like struggling to keep "afloat" and feeling myself being caught in a vicious cycle. It's like sleeping late to finish work, then will feel tired the next day during school and can't concentrate during lessons, so that means i have more work at night cos must go through what i have missed out during the day, and then will sleep late again, and the cycle goes on and on. And it is like neverending cos i will slack a lot during the weekends and use it to get some sleep, and i end up having lots of work to catch up on during the weekdays. Sigh, who ask me to be such a slacker during the dec hols. Haiz, and to think that blocks is like coming in less than 2 months?!!!

started blogging mainly cos was listening to xing kong and tian wen, my batch's dhsco syf pieces. Felt a lot of memories coming back, especially when hearing those parts that we prac for like umpteen times, and all those solo parts that dyb had. Then was like thinking last time when we just graduated from dhs, everyone was like so enthu about coming back for dhsco pracs, performing in gongyan, going for overseas trips as alumni. But come to think of it, like how many of us and how much each of us had done what we said then? Always felt a guilty conscience towards dhsco, it's like because of my personal commitments in hc and hcco, i ended up performing for only last year's gongyan and went for a few pathetic pracs. Then now i m giving gongyan and malaysia trip a miss, sigh =( It's so hard to have both sides of the world...

sometimes, i get quite pissed off when ppl like give satirical remarks, or negative comments, or put some stereotype on dhsco, ppl always give me the impression that they will always target dhsco and try to bring it down or sth like that, which i wonder should dhsco ppl feel happy or sad for that. But i just really feel bu shuang when anything negative is said about dhsco, sigh, i dunno la, perhaps it's cos dhsco has been kept quite isolated by itself, or just my pride that i was in dhsco before makes me have such a big reaction. Rah, i'm not making sense.

anyway, was talking to sihui once, and we like kind of realised that dhs put us in a fantasy world, like where everyone is nice to you, everyone is willing to help you, the teachers will protect you and make sure everything is ok etc. But once we get thrown into jc life, we realised that the world is so much bigger out there, there are so many ppl better than us, we are forced to be independent cos not everyone will be there to help etc. Thank goodness i was one year too early for dhp, or else i will really join cos of co and end up not knowing what's beyond dhs..

ok, enough crapping liao, i should get back to that curly-head maclaurin's famous theorem, sianzzzzzz =(