Bleah! Have been quite tired recently, guess it's cos it's a j2 year, so after a 1.5 months of piaing, i going to have a four day break before starting another round of piaing until block test one, haiz!

Anyway, wed was valentine's day!!!! Haha, the atmosphere in school was really great, it's like feels so nice to see people so happy when they received your presents and everyone becoming so luan cos there are too many presents that people are like trying to give you when you are giving out presents at the same time. In the end, we went late for math tutorial as usual -_-", and we are like totally not in the mood for lessons la, haha! Pity my math teacher who has to keep saying "look here look here!", but guess he was in a good mood too, cos he still bother to joke around. The class guys are super nice too!!!! Each of them like took one test-tube each and put in saga seeds, then each will give to one girl of the class. Haha, even though we knew that they were already preparing presents for the girls in the class liao, but it's like still very sweet of them to do so!=) Haha, Chinese High guys are really more gentlemanly. Oh ya, my angel and mortal are also very nice!!! Haha, my angel actually bake something for me!!! And my mortal gave me a very very cute piggy bank!! Anyway, this year's valentine's day was really fun! Haha, maybe cos i made an effort to be more involved ba, last time didn't even bother...

Anyway, after school, the whole class went to chi loong's house to slack before cross country, haha in the end the sofa too nice, then some of the girls just fell asleep on the sofa. When some of us woke up, we went to the piano room and anyhow take scores to play.. The toilet is like forever occupied by at least one person la! It's like after one person comes out, another person will be like waiting to go in.. Cross country was ok actually, haha, maybe it's cos we already had regular training since the start of the year, so wasn't too chuan after i finished running, and i finished 56th for mass run!! Haha, but the ranking is like no value like that, cos a lot of ppl walked for the cross country

Today had CNY celebrations, CO performance was quite ok, but it was really tiring to move all the instruments and CO stuff from LT2 storeroom to MPH! I was like going to collapse liao la, especially after carrying one row of the scores from the scores cabinet with zhengyou. Seriously i peifu lionel for being able to carry one row of the scores by himself la! Anyway, we didn't plan to finish moving everything today de, but due to the efficiency of CO and cooperation from everyone, we managed to finish ban-ing in like about 1 hour plus! Haha, at least now the CO stuff look so much neater cos MPH is like so much bigger. NO MORE SQUEEZING DURING DAZU LIAO!!! YIPPEE!!! Haha, it's hard to play when you got nearly 80 ppl squeezing on such a small stage in LT3. After that danced the mass dances and fac dance with my class! Haha, didn't really wanted to go and dance cos i felt my bones going to break any moment, but in the end decided to be more enthu and anyhow go and dance. Partnered with xinyi for mass dances, and we were like laughing from the start to the end la! Haha, especially all the turns in wild wild west. Then during fac dance partnered with huiying, then i totally died cos i didn't go for a single fac dance session, so was like following the dance i/cs for the first time. Haha! Didn't know what i was dancing at all. But in the end ares won the fac dance competition!!! YIPPEE!!! Haha, seriously we dunno how we won in, cos we thought we totally cmi for synchronisation, cos so many of us didn't go and learn the fac dance before hand and just anyhow try to follow during the actual thing today, haha!! But who cares, since ares won =D

After that went KAP with some ppl from my class and talk some crap, then went to town with huiying and baopeng. Haha, was talking to them, then halfway i fell asleep la! Too tired from all the ban-ing liao, then they were commenting that i so zai at sleeping -_-" Anyway, felt happy for once, cos like last week was feeling down. Just felt that there are too many demands for me to meet, regardless it is in terms of studies, teachers, CCA, friends, parents etc. Esp parents, cos just kept feeling that my parents dun really understand what i'm going through, and it is like whatever i do is wrong and it doesn't pleases them. And it's like all these expectations are like weighing me down and making me feel so tired. Sometimes wonder why m i like living for others' expectations, or am i pushing myself too hard to meet these expectations. But i must admit that my expectations for myself has really like gone down a lot, cos just too mentally tired to carry on pushing myself. Was commenting abt ppl slping in buses are usually students and not the working ppl with huiying and baopeng, then we were like saying that students today just have to handle too many things. Our work hours is like never-ending cos of school, cca and homework, and we need to handle interpersonal stuff like friends, like we must always be there for them, and we want to, and parents also dun seem to ti liang us. Haha, so quite comforting to know that i'm not the only one going through all these, at least there are ppl who understands what i'm going thru =) But still must thank km and ym for hearing me rant last week =D

Went to meet some of the dhsgep ppl at city hall. Actually, quite disappointing, cos attendance itself wasn't very good, and some misunderstandings occurred. Sigh, i m starting to feel that i m distancing myself from my old class but getting much closer with my current class. Dunno to feel happy that i feel closer to my current class or sad that the barrier between me and dhsgep is like getting wider. Sometimes, just think that i m starting to understand them less and less, but maybe cos i dun see them that often nowadays liao.. Was thinking about last year when i just went into hc, i couldn't put down dhsgep, cos they were a bunch of ppl whom i grew up with for 4 years, and i had the tendency to compare dhsgep with my current class, which is like so unfair, cos i know one for 4 years and the other for a mere few months. Esp cos at the beginning for events like marche treat and faye's farewell party, attendance was like good and everyone are like quite enthu. But recently just felt that everyone's enthusiasm is like dying down and i m like starting to notice the differences, esp after today. Sigh, i dunno how to say la, but just kind of regret a bit for not putting in enough effort to bond more with my current class. Maybe this is what everyone will go through, but just feel quite sad that we are like "breaking apart" kind of thing. But then still thankful that at least i still got a bunch of close friends from dhsgep who are always really there whenever i need them =)

Anyway, went shopping in bugis after meeting them for a short while. Wanted to find a bag in bugis street, but cos not enough money, so ended up checking out shops and prices. And i got cheated! i had to pay $2.50 for a cup of pearl milk tea la! DAYLIGHT ROBBERY!! So xin tong lor, some more it isn't as nice as the eunos mrt station de. And i nearly suffocated from being squeezed to death while walking in bugis street cos there are like simply too many ppl la!! But at least i managed to find 2 shops that i quite like and checked out the range of prices. Shall go during the not so crowded days next time =P Went national library to get some air con after escaping from bugis street. Haha, ended up reading there for about one hour plus..

Oh ya, today was like such a small world, cos met some hc ppl while shopping in city hall and bugis, met kelvin ho in marina square..then when i was waiting for the bus to go home near national library, i didn't realise sophia was there! Then she called my name, but i didn't hear it, cos i think i was too engrossed reading my book. So in the end, she thought maybe it wasn't me. In the end we didn't say hi la! Somemore she said that xiaoxue was talking to her in front of me too, seriously it is like so unbelievable that we didn't recognise and say hi la..bleah. But i'll be seeing them next fri anyway, cos i performing for gongyan!! =P

And my new haircut is totally ugly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I look like a nerd la!!! Even though most ppl say i look ok, bleah.. Shall go off now =)