siighz...ever since tls (my cello teacher for ppl who dunno who i m talking abt) said tt the tone-colour of your cello changes according how u play it and when other ppl touch yr cello and play..the tone colour of yr cello will change...i have been super paranoid...starting to dislike ppl touching my cello...esp those who are not under tls...cos if under the same teacher..the way u play the cello is more or less the same...so won't affect tt much...anyway..back to me being paranoid...i keep thinking tt the tone-colour of my cello is getting worse and worse now....it doesn't have the nice nice sound anymore..

anyway....realised tt today i hate my cello..suddenly develop a dislike for it...was kind of showing a black face to tls halfway during cello lesson today...i really dunno wad is wrong with me...perhaps i m losing my patience with cello..and gets super fed up when i can't even play simple pieces such as robot's march and sonata in c major...haiz....

btw...now reading hilary and jackie...a book abt the famous cellist jacqueline du pre...siighz...she is too talented and pro for my own good...she started performing when she wasn't even 10???...and played the elgar concerto when she was only er...16 or 17???..argh....

lastly...my L1R5 sux...didn't meet my expectations...esp chinese...super sad tt i only got an A2...and i regret so much for not handing up one more essay..humanities pulled me down too...but i love my maths the most!!!..and sciences second...but then..my L1R5 still sux..and it sux when mep can't be counted as a core subject when it has so much work to do compared to clit..hmph...